I'm so post modern...

nang nang nang nangnangnangnangnang nang nang nang!

So Caitlyn got a nang machine.
I noticed something about the way I Nang vs. Other people.

If I Nang sober... I can get wicked visuals. I can even get small body sensations.

If on Acid...
It's like I've been dipped in a sea of colour and I hallucinate... sometimes it gets scary. I have full body sensations weather it be someone slapping me or acid in my mouth, and my mind plays games with it's self. If I don't win those games, I get hurt.
One of my favorite body sensations is the one where it feels like thin filmy stickers are getting thrown at me. It can stick my eyelids closed or bind my body... it's... fucking random.

...

Okay moving on.

Right now I have drunk almost an entire bottle of red wine to my self and am not in bed yet dispite The Boyfriends protests because quite frankly... I haven't done this in a long time and it's something I enjoy. I like to stay up late on the PC getting drunk while reading pron and keeping up to date with my current youtube vlogers. I am ADDICTED to vlogging.
I haven't been able to do this since I started staying with The Boyfriend more and more. He works random hours and he's a bit of a sook when it comes to cuddles. Which I love.
But sometimes I think a bit of 'Me' time would be good. I WANT to stay up late. I never get drunk because The Boyfriend hates alcahol but sometimes it would be nice to get hammered and forget what I did the next day. Is it wrong to not want to act like a grown up 24/7?
Sometimes being around him is so... cold?
I miss being stupid, spon-tan-u-us and random.
I MISS DANCING IN PUBLIC!

>__>

But I love him to much to push him away by being that girl again.
That crazy, somewhat messed up... totally messy girl.


*sigh*

OH OH OH
you know who's awesome?
My mum!
Guess what she did?

NO... GUESS!

wrong.

She bought me and Josh an electric blanket because she wasn't sure we were warm enough and bought be a new journal for all my Wheeling's and dealings.

I love my mum. She's so rad.


... what else?


OH I love livelavalive on youtube.



I think that's all.

OH and should I get twitter? I know it's shit but frezned my all time fave vlogger has one and maybe I can talk to him!!! O__O!



or not.


That's all she wrote,
- Miss Bailey

Xx