Still Standing...

... just.

After an amazing weekend with some good friends, where I felt both more alive and more dead than I have ever felt in my life.
After getting quizzed and snapped at by my boyfriend.
After the gurning caused me to have the worst toothache ever.


After The Boyfriend realised that I am never going to cheat on him and that I will be there for him forever and forgave me for getting high.


Yep.
I'm still standing... Just.

Dear Diary,

I am a lazy bitch who really needs to get her ass off the couch.



That is all.

That's all she wrote,
- Miss Bailey

Xx

Sometimes I'm Lost...

.... But sometimes... I'm right on the money.

Hello world,

Today was lazy as most days are and I realised The Stalker still has my shoes.
Today I felt a little moody, I yelled at The Father-Figure, and was yelled at right back.
Today was strange.
Today was The New-ones first day of promotions at the place that I work...
... she was awesome.
I left The Boyfriend there today.

Today he got a text message from The Before-girl.
I felt like a Substitute-Girl again.
Today, he also had visitors in the form of The Stalker and The Wronged.

Today I realised how stupid it was to give people these names... nobody knows who they are... and if they read it, they could figure it was them-selves...

Who am I protecting them from?


That's all she wrote,
- Miss Bailey

Xx

so...

I retract everything I said in my previous post.


=]

OH and I found the koolest PC today... was a touch screen...

... I touched it. ^^

Xx

fucking emo fucking... fuck.

Dear Diary,

Today was okay. I got to sleep in and then got up to go to Perth with The Boyfriend. Then The Stalker showed up. The Stalker was nice and friendly and keeps commenting me on face space. >__< I hate her. And I think I am totally justifide... yes, we worked on our issues and people should but out of our business, but I don't have to like her. I don't have to KNOW her... but social networking sites make it fucking hard not too. "Dear face space, please hide my existance from all the people I hate... homophobes and people I wont like... oh, and fat people."

So I dealt nicely with her, I was okay. Then I saw my Pet with her boyfriend in Perth. ugh. >__> I hate that guy. He treats her more like a possesion than anything else... kinda like the stalker treats my boyfriend... it's very annoying.

So then he gets a call from his boss asking him to work tomorrow and ...
you know what, I don't even know why I'm whinging about this... *sigh*
We didn't have definant plans and shit but I would kind of like some one on one time with him.

I know I can't complain really... thats why I complain on here. It's not even a real complaint! I probably wont even care by tomorrow. But right now I just feel all emo because I wanted to... go to fremantle and go op-shopping... or get ice-cream or SOMETHING. Damn he is even more of a social fucking butterfly than I am.
I actually feel like I have surrenedered alot more time with friends and family for this relationship than he ever has... and he's not really interested in my friends. OH OH, major bitch! Like... When I see one of his friends on the street, I stop while they chat. With me, he ignores them and me and keeps walking.

>__<

Okay, rant over.

That's all she wrote,
- Miss Bailey

Xx

As an after-thought...

wonder if this works...?
EXPERIMENT TIME!



That's all she wrote,
-Miss Bailey

Xx

Something about pillows

credited to Caitlyn.

=D


Dearest Blogspot,

Today I woke up at 3:00pm to a reasonably quiet house. The Boyfriends sister was watching TV and his mum was passed out on the couch. Passed out drunk? Asleep?
Probably the former.
I feel so bad because she's not my mum and even if The Boyfriend speaks ill of her I don't really think that I can. He has a weird relationship with her, but at the end of the day, she's his mother.

I got to Perth and had myself some red rooster and delivered The Boyfriend some food while he was at work. There's something off about him lately. I can't quite put my finger on it but he's up to something. Maybe it involves the women in his life. Chloe?
I like her. But why doesn't he ever invite me to hang out with them? They are always alone and he sees her quite a bit. I don't believe he'd ever PHYSICALLY cheat on me... but maybe he likes her more. Could he be in love with her more than he's in love with me? I'd like to say that I'm just being paranoid and it's not true.... but I don't know that.
The Stalker.
*grrr*
Why is she still around?
Why did she add me to facespace?
Why are they still talking if he hates her so much? O__o

What really happened while we were broken up?

So many questions....

Did you ever love her?
Did you have sex with her more than once?
If she had decided to date you, would you have even looked at me again?
Did you break up with me for her?

You joked the other day that if you ever wanted to cheat on me you'd just break up with me and then get back together with me later... Is that what you did?

All these questions that I don't feel I can ask you because you might get sad or angry... or think I'm a crazy bitch.

I know there's more to this story than he's telling...


I'm not stupid.

That's all she wrote,
-Miss Bailey

Xx